Over the hump.

I AM MORE THAN HALF WAY DONE!
I am slowly getting comfortable in my skin and feel like this it the right profession for me. I had a job interview this week and it went well. It was a preliminary one, but non-the-less it went well.

I Can Do Dis'

I have survived being completely in charge of these choirs for 3 days and I did good. I can do dis'. THIS is a reassuring notion, because I have up to this point doubted myself, but I am feeling super pumped to be an educator. Maybe that is partly because I have a long weekend to unwind, but either way, I did it. If I can do this, I can do anything! Go me. Oh and I'm gonna be a dad!!!!! Super excited!  

Shani is doing so great and this baby will be so loved. I love life!

New Month

Wow, I made it through September! Now here comes October. If I can make it through this month, I can do anything! Not that it is too hard. I think I can do this and am excited for the fresh feeling of a new month. This will be a great motto when I am teaching--A New Month! New Beginnings! Love this thought and cannot wait to be a teacher myself. It is hard to love these kids and have no future with them. Here's to the future and the month of October!

Gaining Perspective

I love my Wife. She is able to give me perspective on things I tend to do and things I can improve on. She will make it so that I can balance my career and family and for that I am grateful. I am realizing that I can be the person that takes everything that is teaching related and let it consume all of my time. This cannot be. I need to find time in my day for everything. I need to make sure that I am a well rounded person and that I have my priorities straight. I have set a few goals for this semester and I think they will help keep me on track.
They are:
1. Gain confidence in my decision to be a teacher.
2. Develop my ability to respond to a group.
3. Enjoy what I do.
4. Love the Students.
5. Balance my life.

I want to make sure I keep my life balanced and this is how I will do it. What an amazing world we live in and I look forward to improving my corner of it in whatever way I can.

Rejuvenation

Rejuvenation~ if you would have asked me last week about my semester this Fall I would have rolled my eyes and a mini panic attack inside, but a lot can happen in a week. I now feel like I can do this and that is an amazing feeling. I am actually looking forward to the opportunity to teach and observe and learn. I want to push myself to do great things and I want to enjoy every minute of this experience. I thank God for my ability to have amazing shifts in perspective so that I can see the good and forget the bad. Or most of it. I am so glad that I have found a career that is both something that I enjoy and something that I am passionate about. So, Salem Hills High School, Choir and Drama; here I come! Wish me luck!

Holla world

Where to Start?

Life, at times it can be something that is fast paced and energetic; a whirlwind of emotions and at other times it can me as still as a placid lake. I am finding that both of these things can be good, but at the same time challenging to cope with. I think that the real trick is to find your happy medium where you can be going and doing, but you can also have time to make sense of it all.
Well, enough of that deep and confusing thought process, I am in the in-between. I have one more semester of school and that is fun and exciting, but at the same time terrifying and therefore anxiety. . . but the beat goes on. We recently celebrated the birth of Sage Anne Harper on June 4th. That is great. I am so happy for them, but at the same time I am sitting here going... what the, I am 25 and balding, I think I am ready to start having some of my own. I know, take a chill pill right. Well, these are things that sometimes you just feel and you need to write down so I guess I am writing them. I have so much hope for the future and faith that the Lord will guide me to achieve great things, but I am also full of fear and doubts. I think that the Lord has blessed me with extreme faith and therefore every time I do doubt, I then immediately proceed to kick myself in the butt and press forward. This may seem like a good thing, but at times it can be the most frustrating thing of all. Though I can doubt and fear, I will never loose hope. I will always know that God is in charge and therefore I shall prevail.
To look on the a positive side of things, I am so blessed and can never truly doubt this. I love life and all it has to offer. I just get a little frustrated and I guess that makes me human.

But, the spirit will guide and deep inside I know my Savior loves me.

I think I can, I think I can, . . .

Two weeks and counting. As the semester slowly ebbs to a close I see the possibilites that lie before me, there are so many and I am both extatic and a nervous.
First off, my future until December is known (minus summer job, but that is a minor detail.) I will be Student teaching at Salem Hills High School. I will be working with Justin Bills and Polly Dunn and I am very excited to get some experience, and more excited to GRADUATE in the near future--before I'm 26 ;)
Some things I look forward to this summer: Jacie's Wedding, May 3rd in Mesa, Arizona. Shani and I are going to make a trip of it and hit some national parks: Arches, Bryce, Mesa Verde, Grand Canyon and the four courners. This will be fun to go on an adventure with her and start the summer right.
I look forward to getting a head start with Justin Bills on the Fall and learn how things function in the world of MUSIC ED!
I AM DOING AN OLYMPIC TRIATHLON. September 7th, Eric, Shani and I are traveling to YUBA LAKE to compete in our first OLYMPIC TRI. I plan to do a lot of training this summer and this is so motivating. I also will use this as a time to modify my diet and lose some weight. I would love to lose 40 or 50 lbs.
I want to revive my spiritual self this summer and restore old good habits. I need to make time for the spirit to guide me more in my life and allow me to grow from that. What a blessing it is to be the person I am and have the gifts I do, and love the gifts I have. I am so blessed in so many ways and it is my turn to pay the Lord back in some way.
I look forward to the future and what is holds. But for now I must focus on the Present, two weeks and I can let the magic begin!