I have been grumpy all day and I had no idea why, but then it hit me. 10 years ago today my brother committed suicide. I have lived through a lot in these 10 years and am a better man for it, but I can't help but think what Jason might have experienced. Marriage, children, career success, happiness and time with me. I love him so much and miss him, (the stuff I remember, anyway) but I know he is doing his best. I think I need to constantly re-evaluate my life and look at the pros and cons, but the more I think about the pros I can't help but be super grateful. I know that I am a child of God. I know that He has a plan for us called the plan of happiness and I know that because of this plan I have the potential to see my brother again. What a blessing it has been to live the life I live and be surrounded by the people I am. I know these are things I need not take for granted, and I do. I want to be better. I want to work harder to make life happier and most of all I want to return to live with my Heavenly Father and brother Jason. Jas- I love you and I hope you know that I will always love you. :) Life sucks at times, but know that you will always be a part of my heart. Brother bond! This is one of those moments where I am grateful for the tender mercies of the Father and for the power of the Atonement.